Oriental_Princess

I am home…and I suppose to relax and release all tensions I faced for the whole semester……

It’s been a long time that I didnt be at home like this break.

Last semester was doing my internship…..

and I feel too free and nothing to do…

I feel like i wasted the time….

And I miss someone who  used to call me the whole day during the break..

Wish you were here….and wish everything could be as it was …..inshallah

Today I listen to this song “And I’m telling you I am not going” I just love that song….cuz someone is the best I ever meet…..

and you and you and you you ‘re gonna love me……inshallah

Finally ….my last paper,AI has been done by me…

never feel happy like this before…cus I am offically a final year final semester student….too bad I am still single…if not I would talk about getting married after graduate…..I am so crazy ……..

I will be at home after this sunday….during the break got so many plans.I will go to bangkok ,visit my friends and ofcourse  I will be at home ,be with my family……

C ya next semester………UTP

still feel the same ..day by day…fell like i am a rubbish…I should have stopped this feeling and be happy once again…am i deserve to be happy?

go throgh everything once again many friends didnt notice how hurt i was….good in hiding nowaday…hide those pain.

i never stop blaiming myself…..it’s me who be blaim…i hate being this way…

I have to start to love myself once again….love and dont care other….be selfish for my own good…..

alrite just one person gone out from my life….just only that….accepted it

be thankful since i got new experience and know new person……even he has gone…

be strong and move on even u are crying like child ……

go go Inarm as u always tell urself

This story I call myself as en Evil…….

I though I would eb the happiest person in the world after i had a great time again in my life last 2 months……

It’s me to be blaim cus i played with the fire…and I know it would happen…

I am loser again and again ….I cant stand it anymore…..

He’s gone I think he is

and I am hanging here……I cant express  my feeling much Cus I am waiting…..how crazy I am……

Oh my god I just cant move on

there are always s’th change in a life…when we realise and learn to accept ..surely there is the light ….

I found the light…

To be without u I need to be strong.

To be without u I need to be independent .

To be without u I need to know how to be happy.

To be completely without u I need to open my mind ,my heart,my soul.

To be with myself and others who love me…..

it’s nearly the end of my study life…

I should absorb the happiness as much as I could…

…………………..and fly…………………………….

         ofcuz … I need to fly without u

It’s been 6 months…..

You are happy as you said and me too I swear I am

But now I feel like I increase another hurt…….

Y it is too easy to love someone ?

I cant love you but y my heart dont listen to my brain…………

I am a loser

       when it comes to the end,I have to accept it with watever reason he gave.It has been such a long time that I never be alone….now i  have to and I will manage it.      

        life is hard.Love is hurt.I am in pain.I will get over it.I will be strong.I will be myself just like before you came to my life.

firstly i have to thx god for all best thing in my life and bad thing to make me strong…..

finally it’s the end of my semester break.It’s the time to fight for projects….yo yo

   Finally all my projects and tests are finish….I think this semester steal all my holiday…but Thx God i can over come.

  The next thing is my final exam.I wish it will be perfect as b4,pray for that.I dont want to be the best and be the last neither .

So I just be myself and fight for the final…..dont be stress Inarm..go go Inarm .

feeling unsecure……damn tired when we have no choice…..cant even choose wat we want………

thx God u send him here if he is not here i wont stay…..

Moving on…..Study and study ……my 5 years time is only for that?……